Old Flame

Today marks the start of my new phase in life. Cant really figure out how I'm feeling at this moment in time but it is definitely something I will cherish the most. So today we had our first class in the year 2017. New friends, new rivals, new feelings. Some may say that it will be the most stressful time of the year but my opinions differ. I could really see how this year might be the year. Back on track, I had all my things ready. To new shoes, a handful of pens, A stack of vibrant-colored notebooks, a color coordinated wardrobe fill with in trend clothing and accessories. Woke up at 8 today,made myself some breakfast then went on to take a bath. Next up is hair and makeup. Cant really see myself without makeup. I mean,i can live without it but i like to spice things up. Just like what my friends say, masala hahaha. Looked in the mirror, really felt good abt myself,how i presented myself. So i went out the door,hopped on the public buses and off i go to school. Bought myself a cup of tea or how i would like to call em chai. Called my friend,ask them where they are and waited. Caught a glimpse of my friend and talk to him for a bit. As i walk up to the lecture theatre, I saw him sneaking a glimpse. He looked diff. A good diff. Eventhough his hair kind of change and his window to the world changes,my feelings for him didnt. Even how hard i try to resist, he keeps coming back,knocking the door to my heart, coming up with reasons to stay. Similar to mine. Was in a state of shocked when my friend told me that he ask abt me. He really is something. I cant figure it out why i still think he is the one. Eventhough he looked like one of the surfer guys you would meet at a normal beach side with his hair parted in an unusual way,he still looks good to me. It is weird how that anything he does, i am somehow attracted. Even at his worse i still see him or more like i accept anything and everything he does. I hope this year could be more detailed and not as vague as last year. I need straightforward feelings,emotions and answers. I have got no time for maybe. It is either yes or no. Everything evolves around him. Im glad my name was one of your words today. Blessed. God, please make him stay if he is the one. That is all for today. Always believe in fate. If it is meant to be it will be.

Chance-Hope.

So, it has been ages since ive updated this blog. Was so busy with work and life generally. Theres been interesting phase of life that has passed by this couple of months. It has been 10 months im in my new school. Things change,things happen. Let me throw myself out there. Since the first day of shcool, i cant help but to, by any chance stare at your face. Every morning, i would be eager to see if you came to school. Catching a glimpse of you, with your smile, makes my day. Sadly for me, u dont realise. Just when i start to stop catching feelings for you, you start to do things that make me think i stand a chance. My friends do say that im a lady version of you. We do talk now but lets see what happens next,ya?

Burning Desire.

It has been a busy week for me, revising for test/exams, planning for the holidays and following a schedule that was made. There's a lot on my palate but I can still juggle with school, family and self time. So today was a special day for someone, I totally forgot. HAHAHA oh wells, I was too occupied. So I sent him a text saying all the things I should have said. His reply was shocking, being cheeky and stuff. OMG! What went down today was really shocking. Started off like any other boring days. Suddenly there was a plot twist. He was talking to her. I got a little jealous, maybe because I fancy that lad. He is one thoughtful lad I must say. 2 other lads came up to me and started talking. DODGE BALL. yes, dodge ball. One of my favorite sports. It was rough and sweaty but it ended well. Some random guy decided to be half naked. I was like 'astagrafirullah!'. HAHA not a common sight for me. Saw my bestfriend. She now has a boyfriend and I'm here like... HAHAHA well its my choice. W

ent home, started studying. All the way, pressing on. Noting to myself that by the end of the day, this will all pay off eventually. Done studying. Day dreaming about how it would be perfect if... what ifs running through my head. #thosenightthoughts #whatifs

#GIRLPOWER

today was kind of a sleepy day. Board the bus at 6.30 in the morning and doze off immediately when given a seat. I was lucky that I woke up just in time to go out the bus. Todays weather is a bit chilly and as usual I have forgotten to bring a jacket along. Lucky there was ZH who is always there when I need warmth. I meant his jacket kept me warmed, hahaha. As lesson went on, I took down notes and the days goes on as usual. Til he walked in. My jaw literally dropped to the floor. I was smiling to myself like a psychopath. He was looking hella good. I cant help myself but to stare at his perfection. To me he has no flaws. My weakness is when guys knows how to dress well and smell like a field full of flowers. He has this mystery side to him that i just cant quite understand which makes him sexy but nerdy. A sexy nerd to be exact. My friends told me to talked to him but i cant. I would literally blush whenever he is around. The vibe his giving me is way off the chart. I know that he has broken up recently but now he is getting to know this girl knowing i wont be her. I'm here singing treat you better by shawn mendes hoping he will see me. The way he sat just now. I was observing his body language. I was across the room and he was too. I was sitting facing him,thinking he would sit the other direction. Come to my surprise, he was sitting facing me. I kept on smiling but tried to keep it cool as always. I notice someone was looking at me. Busy finishing the task given, i look up, it was him. He was looking at me smiling. My stomach flutters. He walked towards the table where my bag was. I was sitting with my bestf at another table. He was sitting diagonally behind me. I couldn't breath. He was staring at me,i turn around and he was still staring. He was not like other guys,when i saw him staring, usually people will look away. He didn't. He stared at me like he wanted to tell me something. Its like i feel we were meant to be. Maybe it was all in my thoughts. My friend sent me this quote saying the best thing a women can do is to know

that she doesn't need a man in her life to have a success story. She can stand with her both feet. I kept staring at that quote sent by one of my closest friend. Maybe she is right. I don't need a man to make it happen,ill get up do my thing. My motivation is to be an independent lady. No more crushing on guys,they are just a waste of your time. Focus on your exams,studys and family and friends. They are more important. Listen ladies,we can make it happen even without a guy by our side,lets be an independent ladies of the future. #girlpower -audi

That moment when you had a dinner date with your idol. OMGG HE IS THE SWEETEST THING EVER. He is getting married in the mid of this month. So happy for them. May the goods be in your favor. #throwbacktoKLtrip

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Guy Bestfriend

So what is it like having a guy bestfriend? The best feeling in a world. Its like your talking to your girlfriends but with a different perspective. Guys strangely can be way more emotional than girls which is surprisingly true. Lucky I have a tolerance for weird people. So now I have this guy best friend that I really adore. I mean I can talk to him for hours and don't get bored. We talk about everything and anything that comes up in our mind. Crushes, teachers, food, likes and dislikes and sometimes more deeper conversion. We kind of click the minute we started talking. I just feel some sort of comfort talking to him. I don't feel any sort of awkwardness with him.